好在重有屋企人...

Well..... Something is not right inside me.... i need somewhere to express myself. Where is the most comfortable place that i can just yell and yell?? i guess it would be here, with my most comfortable language.... WHO CARES? the person who should be reading this wont come and read it anyway... doesn’t it matter what kind of stupid language that i am writing with?

July 2007, 1st vomit, since then... every Monday/ Tuesday or 1st day of work after holiday... dizziness, cold, vomit, nausea, diarrhea.... feeling no good. Doctor said cos I am depressing from work due to pressure... in deed, I just remembered that you are the 1st lot that I told, still remembered that you were asking me to hunt for an other job.... 4 months later, I was telling you a frd of ours was sick, you sounded so nervous and kept on asking me how she is. At the same time I told you that I am also suffering too, y didn’t you ask me how I feel? Your 1st respond was, 'I am not worrying about you, also you never tell me that you are sick'... SHOCKED...well...but now you know, I am still suffering, I am still expecting from your call, and now come zero.

Wanted to go out somewhere and relax~ cool that you have the same thought as me, and invited me to go somewhere with you, cool then let me start plan on our little journey. Here I come with information on a short trip, oh what? Too short? thought you said you wanted to go, but cant take too many leaves on December, so a short one would be nice ... Oh... realized that you are not interest... oh well, disappointed, so cruel, well, may be next time... SAH... finally realized that cruel caused from the wrong timing call, sorry to disturb you from resting... upset in deed, but never say.

How about a movie? This movie reminds me of mum, I missed mum... hey, you are the person who had been through with me, I am not dare to watch it without you. Please, would you? oh, got rejected... may be you are right, shouldn’t I do something to upset myself... however I see it as doing something for mum, cant i just feeling how mum felt back then? The movie would tell, the lady was so much like mum. I need your support to watch it, and you were the only person who I felt comfortable watching with.

WOW, yeah, confirmed that I am going on a vacation early next year, COOL~ so looking forward to, cant stop myself to share my joy with you at the 1^st moment… but, ohohoh, come on, I still so much want to go on vacation with you~ wanted badly… huh? Nonono I am thinking too negative, you wont be angry at me cos of that….wont you? Right?

Upset moment, suddenly received a call, its my lovely sister Angie, oh she is near home, and wanted to come and visit me. Baby you are most welcome, thank you so much for dropping by, and thank you so much for listening to your trouble sister grievance…. I love you, the great sister in the world… went can I move in with you?

When you complain about somebody wont don’t not care you and pay attention on you, please 1^st think about how you treat the others, do you care? Do you pay? I give, can I get? I am no longer the stupid girl when you 1^st met, I grew after so many passes. Can you please take 1 minus preciously to feel me from heart?

Don’t worry, I just here to grievance……

有家人真好~~